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A letter to my generation: November 2007
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Saturday, November 3, 2007. All that I can't ignore, alone at night. Worst feeling in the world. She's not here and I've failed her I've failed and it's over there's nothing I can do to keep her out of her parents house and there is nothing I can do to keep her from killing herself or from living a completely empty life. All I can keep saying to her is I'm sorry and I'm sorry shelbea I'm so so sorry. Subscribe to: Posts (Atom). A letter to my generation. All that I cant ignore, alone at night.
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Tabula Rasa: flawless.
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Friday, March 27, 2009. The day after my mother passed away my father wanted to bring all of her jewelry to the safe deposit box. I was assigned the task of sifting through the tower of jewelry boxes to separate the costume from the sentimental from the genuine articles. When I was done I was a sobbing mess curled in the middle of my parents king sized bed. I lay clutching a red leather box in one hand.and in the other my mother's engagement ring. How I was drawn to it! I brought the humble pile of jewel...
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Tabula Rasa: I'm a member of the club and I have the card to prove it!
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Sunday, December 9, 2007. I'm a member of the club and I have the card to prove it! Wow, I mean I knew it but seeing it here makes it all the more real. Everything makes it more real. I am still in a little bit of shock I think. I look at her, and look and look and look. Trying to memorize every little part of her before it grows.or before my shock and awe is worn away by sleepless nights (check time stamp please) and fits of what we now refer to as." Unrelenting Riley Action. Relentless I tell you.
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Tabula Rasa: Can't Sleep...Clowns Will Eat Me....
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Friday, February 1, 2008. Can't Sleep.Clowns Will Eat Me. EhhhSo the Peanut M&M Candies I bought today say "Tear 'n Share Size" on the package. Who are they to tell me if I should share my candies? Do you think some people feel inadequate with their lives based on what commercial packaging tells them? I can't watch those "How Its Made" food shows. If I watch mass production of a food I can never eat it again. Like when I saw how they made Gummi Bears. Trust me you do not want to know. Not that I even.
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Tabula Rasa: A rare and different tune.
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Saturday, January 5, 2008. A rare and different tune. Tonight I sat in the nursery for what seemed like hours. I rocked. Rock rock rock. I bounced. Bounce bounce bounce. I sang. Every song in my repertoire. Over and over. The songs I sang to my belly when she was inside me. The ones I sang to her in the hospital. The songs I sing in the shower, or to myself in the car. All of them. Over and over. My poor baby just couldn't, wouldn't sleep. Has it been that long since I have even hummed the tune? I though...
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Tabula Rasa: May 2009
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Monday, May 18, 2009. In preparation we feng shui'd the house and made the best use of the pieces we had. Because really, this house was just not working for us. All before pictures taken by Spouse while I was in NJ and he had the inspiration and drive to just move everything without. Talking to me first. Me and the baby under foot. Before: Eat in kitchen. After: It's a playroom! Before: Playroom/Office (desk already removed). Spouse and I have no idea why it took us 2 years to use the dining room as a.
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Tabula Rasa: eighteen.
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Thursday, June 4, 2009. After only a year and a half, I feel like she has always been with me. Funny how such a short time can feel like forever. Labels: letting the baby blog. Oh, she is such a love. June 4, 2009 at 10:29 PM. She is just precious! Dont suppose you wanna come out here, do ya? Yeah, thats what I thought. And your little girl too (cackle, cackle). June 4, 2009 at 11:17 PM. June 5, 2009 at 8:33 PM. NOM NOM NOM on those tasty legs. June 14, 2009 at 7:58 AM. Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom).
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Tabula Rasa: June 2009
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Friday, June 12, 2009. This isn't what I thought 35 would look like. I have vowed to start taking things people say at face value. The internal hamster running on the wheel of "what did so and so really mean" is exhausting. I am after all now 1/2 way to 70 (happy birthday to me). And trying not to listen to the bullshit that piles up in my head. It really only gives me a headache. We have been looking to adopt a dog, but it has to be the. I live in New England. My short list of dog requirements. The othe...
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Tabula Rasa: The JMIL Factor
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Wednesday, January 30, 2008. I, like many women, have a hard time communicating with my mother in law. She is a sweet darling woman. There is not a bad or evil bone in her body. She just happens to not listen to a word I say. Spouse says it is because she talks and listens to me like I am one of her daughters. This drives me crazy. I say what I mean. I do not make a lot of fuss or use fancy words.I tell it like it is. She interprets what I say in ways I could never have imagined. You want a kugel? Really...
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Petebar Pix: Back Home In Minnesota
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Tuesday, January 22, 2008. Back Home In Minnesota. I made it back to Minneapolis yesterday only a little late thanks again to bad weather in Houston. It was a long, lousy day of traveling due to the cold I had acquired. And, my left ear would not "pop" during either landing. No fun. I couldn't hear properly and I was a bit off. It got back to normal sometime during the night, but I can still feel some effect. Glad you made it home. When are you coming back? 1/23/08, 10:16 AM. 1/24/08, 3:08 PM. Expensive ...
